Blogging is a Moving Meditation.

BLOGGING as a MOVING MEDITATION: Liminality's thin passage untangles as it weaves, fits in the ineffable nooks and crannies of my heart's prayer wall, like the cracks in pavement, mile markers on the road, windblown whimsical napkin poems written in eyeliner.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

O Come O Come Emmanuel - Trace Bundy and Josh Garrels

This is my favorite christmas song .... it's such a lament to the calling forth of God being "with us" - which is what Emanuel means.......
(got turned on the Josh Garrels music about 3 years ago... and, well, - just love the skill, humility and purity of it)
So we are stepping into December. -
Just before thanksgiving 6 years ago, my dad tried to commit suicide. ( God spared his life... thank you Jesus)- however for me ...... this window of time...... is filled with a lot "lacking". I know it's supposed to be filled with all sorts of "christmas cheer" and all that. Society puts a lot of weight on it. It's hard when you don't have "family" per say.... that weight feels overwhelming and i fight pretty hard not to go into a space of avoiding.
I still like singing christmas carols though.... i think it's the only thing that brings me some comfort.

Let's Talk About Jesus Fall Retreat in the Poconos Friday evening message

I sooooo love his simple teaching.... the point of praise.... the living water.... drink ...drink more... -
Here's a bit of Northern........ preaching. I think the praise point is much missing in all of our walk. We forget, (at least i do)- that the enemy hates praise... he can't stand to be in a space of praise. So it might be simplistic...... but so needed. I have chosen the better part of things.... when i made that decision to follow in the way of Jesus. It's not believing harder..... it's about drinking more of Him. So toasting to living water... and eating more of the bread of life.

Let's Talk About Jesus Fall Retreat Saturday evening

I've listened to Wayne since 1979.... he had a radio program "let's talk about Jesus"... it's been on the air ever since. Gone to a few retreats... (one that basically changed the course of my life ....- long story there )
I had just become a believer back then... "79"........ His radio show was a call in counseling program for those that had gotten disillusioned with christendom.... so early on i was already hearing so much of what people were having angst about... and hashing through. His voice reminded me of my favorite priest... it was strong with a gentle, yet masculine authority. He wasn't about hype... thankfully. It was simple and solid teaching; yet also held some of the mystery of the Gospel, hidden nuggets of truth. It was calm truth in a very stormy sea of my life. So here's a snippet. I'll prolly share more on it.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Jonathan David Helser | Endless Ocean


Speaking of new ones........ nice one bro!
There is no place where i feel "home" as deeply as i do the Ocean..... Jonathan.. thanks for combining my hearts passion there. - I'm soaking in the salt now.

Songs of Water at the Broach Theatre - montage

New one from Songs of Water... (need i say more?)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Deluge JONES style!



Just had the honour of hosting the Jones’ (aka TallSkinnyKiwi & fam), this past week.  
T’was a thick 5 days of “Tribe Touchin”, filled with food, fun, deep convo, punching play, the mini row and even included Amy Chapman’s birthday party; with STONEY’s new EP... “THE SOAR BEFORE” in crescendo!  (Love you girl... you are soooo walkin in the beauty!)  
Nothing like a party thrown by the Chapman’s ... SERIOUSLY!!!!... and Mark... that EP absolutely SMOKES DA HOUSE OUT!   (both Amy’s party and Mark’s new EP deserve their own special blog post actually!- will get on those two, shortly.)
Gotta say though, as per the JONES’s,  i really don’t think these guys get enough credit for what they do.  I don’t know anyone quite like them.  Ummm 5 kids, 2 adults and the random ragamuffins that often just pile in their rolling house- geezzzzzzzz they touched 23 countries this year alone!  (or was it 24, i’m bad with numbers and tend to loose count!)  

Spreading some thick Jesus love in what i would consider NYC cream cheese style on a warm onion and garlic bagel!  (Yummy, Yummy, Yummy, I got love in my Tummy and i feel like a-lovin you!) *** yes, yes, Ohio Express- 1968!
I love their Kingdom expression of Grace...  they really are living it not just yapping about it.  
They rolled up in the “brady-bunch” wagon ... (really, it looks like it, no joke!)   Thus began the deluge, (well, that was the word i got on it in the Spirit) ; so the ocean of love swelled and rolled and we just played in the fray for a few days and the sand is still stuck in my shoes.
Really was a full house though, Paul Pleasant came in, as did Jenna White and Becky Garrison got in on the tail end of the goods.  So the body count strewn over air mattresses, couches, futons and floor was 11 including Phil and myself.  We got to feel what this home/kingdom space could hold and actually now understand that it can hold even more!  (love those stretching moments- made me think that we really have a TARDIS here, bigger on the inside!)  

There were a few i was REALLLLLLLY missing though.... 

Brian & Whitney, Jen & Fran, Jessica, Lizzy, Teresa, Brandon & Julia, Stephen and Sarah, and Shannon- so consider this guys as a hug sent your way.... 
Anyway.... 
It was a really rich time of convo as well.  Andrew you absolutely MUST... no if’s, and’s or butt’s about it... when you speak ANYWHERE.. have a podcast going...  you hold way too much wisdom and knowledge that is in dire need of expounding upon.  So dude, GET OVER YOURSELF!  Build that bridge will ya!-

AND... speaking of WISDOM... Debbie, you don’t get off easy, girl! 
                     What a frigg’in wealth there!  Get DRAWING and get TALK’IN! 
What stories to tell, what love to spread, what Joy to go viral!!!!
(just remember the image of that “draw bridge” - God loves to PUN... and the creaking sound i was making at both of you!)  K- nuff said! xo
I think the thing that always gets me ... when this crazy Tribe touches is the incredible amount of rich deposit in the Spirit that is carried.  Such a wealth of goods & Kingdom bootie! 
It happens in an organic fashion, where not everyone has to be in the same room, just that we make room, to touch in Coffee Shops & each other’s homes.  (still longing for the day though that we can all go on a rafting trip- level 5 like, and BE together in some action adventure!- just my lil secret desire there!)
So presently, with an Irish Coffee in hand as i’m typing this... 
I’m toasting to ya all in Lagavullin, Ardbeg, Highland Park & Famous Grouse - QUAICH like fashion!
Here’s to L’Chaim and it being poured out and drunk “neat”  Together!
much love guys,
xocathryn

Saturday, November 06, 2010

Willow Live At The Visulite Theatre


Here's a new one from Songs of Water. Stephen brilliant as ever! I so love these guys!

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

PLEASE PRAY for SPENCER WILSON



We have some VERY dear friends in N.Carolina that hold a deep place in our heart's pocket.  When Ken Helser told me that his 14 year old grandson, Spencer was diagnosed with "Ewing's sarcoma" in August 09, my heart broke.  There are some things that happen in this earthly realm that piss me off to the core and this would be one of them.

I've been following his posts on CaringBridge and will post the link at the end.
I'm asking here that for those of you who read my blog, pop in on occasion and or stumbled on to it....... to PRAY..... please.
 
I'm going to copy and paste a few things- including an article that was written about Spencer in the High Point Enterprise on 10/24/10 by Jimmy Tomlin  - but first a word from Spencer...

My name is Spencer Daniel Wilson and I am 14 years old.  I was diagnosed on August 20, 2009 with Ewing's sarcoma.  I completed eight months of chemo on March 15, 2010.  I was in  remission for six months, but I relapsed on September 16, 2010.  I am now undergoing chemo and radiation at Brenner's and then a vaccine study at NIH.  Keep praying for a miracle!   


Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." 


BACKGROUND STORY


Thank you for all of your prayers.  It has really touched me and I know God will answer them.  "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Phillipians 4:13.  Please pray for me as I start my chemo therapy treatment tomorrow.  I also have a portocath being put in.  Thanks again for all of your prayers and may God be with you.
Spencer Wilson 



Here is the article - i would ask that you take the time to read it and pray for this young lad and his family.  



HIGH POINT – One afternoon about a month ago, as Spencer Wilson stepped out on a rock ledge at Hanging Rock State Park, his mother Jodie snapped a photograph – not just of her 14-year-old son, but also of the vast, beautiful expanse stretching out far beneath him.






It wasn’t until later, as Jodie studied the photo, that she remembered Spencer’s fear of heights. Yet there he stood on the precipice, calmly, confidently surveying the scenery in front of him.






“It made me think about what he is going through,” Jodie says.






What Spencer’s going through – again – is cancer. Specifically, it’s Ewing’s sarcoma, a rare malignancy that Spencer was able to beat the first time around after an intensive chemotherapy regimen that claimed his hair, made him nauseous, sapped his strength and – temporarily, at least – derailed his dreams of someday playing college basketball.






Spencer celebrated his last day of chemo March 15, and a week later he was declared in remission.






That lasted half a year. In mid-September, following Spencer’s six-month checkup, a biopsy showed the cancer had returned. With Ewing’s, the odds of beating it the first time are favorable, but when the patient has a relapse – and particularly so soon – the prognosis is dismal.






“The quicker it comes back,” Jodie says softly, “the cancer is more vicious.”






Spencer knows this, because his parents have shared everything with him. He knows that in the cold, statistical world of medical science, odds are that he will die – and if his current treatment regimen doesn’t work, it could happen in as little as six months to a year.






But there’s something else Billy and Jodie Wilson have shared with their son – their faith in a sovereign, merciful, loving God who still performs miracles.






“He is not a God of percentages,” Billy says.






“He’s much bigger than cancer,” Jodie adds.






Spencer knows this, too, and it shows in how he carries himself. With a full head of hair now and a big, confident smile of perfectly straight teeth – courtesy of the braces he recently had taken off – he looks more like a fashion model than a cancer patient.






“I feel great,” he says, explaining that while he does tire more easily than usual, his chemo treatments have not yet taken a heavy toll on his body.






Spencer admits, however, that the initial news of the relapse stunned him.






“I just got really angry – not necessarily at God, but just mad,” he says. “I didn’t know what to do. Couldn’t figure out why this was happening.”






Nor could his parents, who believed God had healed their son.






“It was like a dagger,” Billy says of the diagnosis. “Everything had been going so great.”






Indeed, Spencer’s three-month checkup had been perfect. He’d been working out and playing basketball almost daily to get back in shape after his first bout with cancer. He’d been to several basketball camps. Only a few hours before learning he had relapsed, Spencer had been at Davidson College, where he met one of his favorite players, former Davidson great Stephen Curry (who, coincidentally, had sent Spencer a signed jersey during his first illness).






When Spencer’s parents told him about the relapse, he asked questions: How long do I have to live? How can I be away from my family? My dream of playing college basketball isn’t going to happen, is it? Do I have to do chemo again?






“That was really, really tough,” Billy says. “But we also had a really amazing conversation, a spiritual conversation about eternity. We talked about how God is in this, and He totally understands. We told him we were going to be with him every step of the way, and we were praying for a miracle and believing that God was going to get him through this and heal him.”






They cried together and prayed together. And then, Billy says, a peace seemed to come over Spencer, and he hasn’t cried since. Yes, he’s had his moments of frustration – when the chemo made him sick, for example – but he has remained upbeat and even maintains his quirky sense of humor.






“He’s handled it so well – he’s a unique kid,” Billy says.






The medical protocol calls for a staggered regimen of chemo – one week on, two weeks off – as well as a five-week blitz of daily radiation treatments. If the cancer begins to shrink, Spencer will also participate in a clinical vaccine study at the National Institutes of Health in Bethesda, Md., traveling there every other week for three to five days at a time.






In the meantime, the family has committed itself to praising God through what promises to be a difficult storm.






“The first week we were just so overwhelmed with grief,” Jodie explains, “...and when you have so much grief, you don’t have room for joy. We knew we had to move past that place, because you’re immobilized when you’re overwhelmed with grief. There’s no place for joy, no place for laughter, no place to praise the Lord, so we knew we had to get out of that place.”






Spencer, too, has moved past his initial anger. He thinks the relapse has actually strengthened his faith and caused him to cling to his God more tightly than he already had been.






Which brings us back to Jodie’s photograph of her son, standing on that precipice, calmly, confidently surveying the scenery in front of him.






That sounds an awful lot like Spencer’s approach to cancer, doesn’t it?






“It takes faith,” Jodie says of her son, “to stand boldly up against your greatest fears and trust the Lord has you securely in His hand.”






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Thank you all  for taking the time to read this Blog post... and for praying.

If you would like to follow Spencer's journey in this storm please go to:



http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/spencerwilson/mystory

Monday, November 01, 2010

Storms & Faith and the miraculous Pt.1...Awe TV

Well, i'm obviously in listening to good teaching mode. Storms of faith has been an ongoing dialogue of late. I think there are times when as David did... we must encourage and strengthen ourselves in the Lord. See 1 Samuel 30:6 - It's a place of when feeling all the doubt and angst as well as facing some fierce foes we return to the place of belief in knowing Who HE IS... HE is the I AM.
For me, it's getting grounded again in some solid teaching.. since faith comes by HEARING. That also means speaking the truth of what i know of God in my life ... for when i speak out loud - or sing out loud... my ears hear the truth that my mouth is speaking and my spirit man is filled with faith again.
My brain can feel like a stormy sea and my stomach churns with doubt... Lord, please step into my boat. amen.

(Storms Faith & The Miraculous Pt.2)

hmmmm No hope of vision part due to the battle in the mind. I know those Oi Vey moments... all too well. Love the point that Jesus MADE the disciples get into the boat...

WSTK-ITV - Storms Faith & The Miraculous Pt. 3 - AWE TV

Ok... i have to laugh on the Bob Jones part here... just classic.


WSTK-ITV - Breaking Down Strongholds (Part 1) Awe TV

I've listened to John Paul's teaching for over 10 years now. He always packs a punch. I love his teaching style because it's clear, direct and gentle.
This is a topic that has been on my mind a lot in recent years. I had a conversation the other day with a friend about "faith, hope and belief" and what is the difference and how they interact with each other. It got me thinking about what directly comes against those 3 things- and how we THINK directly effects/affects our faith, hope and belief. Also, how strongholds effect relationships in "spiritual disorientation" based in offense. I needed to hear this today. (it's 1 of 2 parts) though i know it could be much more..... but i like his snap shot and meaty teaching because it causes one to think deeper on how we think.

i needed to pull down a few strongholds in my mind.

Mark 9:24 (Amplified Bible)

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WSTK-ITV - Breaking Down Strongholds Part 2 - Awe TV

Ok... Here's part 2 ... sometimes we just need the basics and be reminded. Hmmmm "the stronghold of judgement". God knows i've fallen victim to that one! I know i need to be reminded that my mind needs to be renewed ...... strongholds steal our hope and destroy our faith. I love the point where John Paul looks at the stronghold as an opportunity for strength building.. instead of the whiny "why me" points. I'm going to write out the his "Tips" here... (so i can re-read them too!)

#1) HOW WE THINK ABOUT OURSELVES TRUELY AFFECTS WHO WE ARE AND CAN KEEP US IN BONDAGE.

#2) STONGHOLDS SET THEMSELVES UP AGAINST GOD'S KNOWLEDGE OF US AND OPINION OF US SO WE WILL LOSE SIGHT OF WHO HE SAYS WE ARE.

#3) STRONGHOLDS WILL SUPPRESS YOUR FAITH AND WILL KEEP GOD FROM BEING ABLE TO ACT ON YOUR BEHALF.

#4) A TELLTALE SIGN OF A STRONGHOLD OPERATING IN YOUR LIFE IS A RECURRING "WHY ME?" MENTALITY.

#5) STRONGHOLDS NOT ONLY AFFECT YOUR OWN LIFE, BUT THEY CAN ALSO KEEP YOUR CHILDREN IN BONDAGE TO THE SAME THINGS.