O Come O Come Emmanuel - Trace Bundy and Josh Garrels

This is my favorite christmas song .... it's such a lament to the calling forth of God being "with us" - which is what Emanuel means.......

(got turned on the Josh Garrels music about 3 years ago... and, well, - just love the skill, humility and purity of it)

So we are stepping into December. -

Just before thanksgiving 6 years ago, my dad tried to commit suicide. ( God spared his life... thank you Jesus)- however for me ...... this window of time...... is filled with a lot "lacking". I know it's supposed to be filled with all sorts of "christmas cheer" and all that. Society puts a lot of weight on it. It's hard when you don't have "family" per say.... that weight feels overwhelming and i fight pretty hard not to go into a space of avoiding.

I still like singing christmas carols though.... i think it's the only thing that brings me some comfort.