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BLOGGING as a MOVING MEDITATION: Liminality's thin passage untangles as it weaves, fits in the ineffable nooks and crannies of my heart's prayer wall, like the cracks in pavement, mile markers on the road, windblown whimsical napkin poems written in eyeliner.

Sunday, January 17, 2010


Listening to Lee O’hare preach this morning about God’s unfailing love and covenant relationship that HE cannot break.....  (he’s pretty excited as he’s teaching ATM, and that is contagious -  I’m listening via his cell phone- Kinda cool that he called from the pulpit, the entire Church yelled a “hello to Austin”.    

It’s only been in the last year or so that Lee’s been “back in the saddle” so to speak / preach/ teach-  after a 10 year gap in the desert of obscurity.  Lee was my pastor @ Vineyard Christian Fellowship in the “90’s” and i would go so far to say, was the one person that God used to forever change my relationship with Jesus!  (thanks Lee, i’m not blowing sunshine up yer #$@) 

That came with a pretty high cost and a shit load of warfare.  It was a time of amazing out pouring of Holy Spirit AND some of the fiercest fire fights in the Spirit that i’ve ever encountered, up to that point.

I could share about everything that happened during that time, and it was pretty messy to say the least.  It really broke my heart to see my friend get targeted by the enemy, FALL HARD, the elders/brothers turn against him, the church spiral into serious dysfunction,  disillusionment, rebellion and pain.

But i knew this wasn’t the “last word” on the matter; that Jesus wasn’t done with the it, nor done with Lee’s heart.   

I remember Lee speaking during the “Ephesian’s” study...  The never ending GRACE of GOD...(it was a never ending study, that i thought Jesus might return during, since it was taking so LONGGGGGGGGG)  When Lee said "I'm BEGINNING to CLOSE" we all sorta snickered and settled in for the next 40 minutes of teaching, i did bring a pillow a few times).............................
I still have those master tapes with him teaching, yes, they were tapes, not CD’s. 

The  thing is, Lee’s message has never changed  - rather, Christ’s message thru Lee has never changed.  It’s been one of extravagant, passionate, and relentless pursuit of God’s love towards us.  THIS IS THE GOSPEL. 

With all the “pomo” spins on issues and theological debate on matters of culture, justice and ad nausea.

It is the ONE constant, unchangeable, immovable, and solid structure  on which I stand.  

In listening to Lee today, it’s a portent of HIS unfathomable grace.  To know the hard journey in which he  has walked, to see how relentless God’s love has been in his life, and HIS ongoing pursuit of reconciling hearts is astounding.

I do stand in privileged spaces at times, for what ever the reason, i’m grateful.  So today is a public THANK YOU... to Lee - for where he’s stood in my life, for the way he is standing now for the sake of the Gospel.  I’m grateful for our friendship and kinship in Jesus.   It gives me hope for the many things that are still in the waiting.

I love you Lee, my brother and friend..... know that i will continue to stand in that gap space for you and yours... to see His promises made fully manifested. 

His recompense is Grace...........