Blogging is a Moving Meditation.

BLOGGING as a MOVING MEDITATION: Liminality's thin passage untangles as it weaves, fits in the ineffable nooks and crannies of my heart's prayer wall, like the cracks in pavement, mile markers on the road, windblown whimsical napkin poems written in eyeliner.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Contrasting Sky

One of my indicators that i've not kept things up - is how many photo's that were still in my camera and not uploaded. So this is one of downtown Austin, that i captured from the 3rd floor Gym window. ( I work at a Rehabilitation Hospital that has some cool views).
It was about 10am- and as you can see, a storm was brewing .... From the North West sky, it was still sunny , yet from the South East, the dark brooding of the storm was cresting. It's shadow caused the reflection of the road against the sky. It looks like a dividing wall in the Spirit of sorts and that's what it feels like atmospherically here.

It's been about a year and a half since we've moved here (May of 08) and this pic would be a good way of describing what it's felt like.

We've pretty much been hosting since we landed, some short stays and some a bit longer. As ever, that is awesome and challenging all at the same time. Sharing our home and our hearts has bottom line, always been a blessing. The Challenging part of it, comes down to the fact that we were (and i guess still are on some levels), in transition.

Part of the reason i haven't done my typical blog posts is that everything has been in a state of Flux per say. Things have come in waves - some busy and some quiet - with a bunch of loose ends.

The house we bought is gradually becoming our own, as we do projects along the way. It would have been nice to have had lots of stuff done in the beginning, but due to finances and time constraints, it's been a slow go. (What i do for a living pays less here and the cost of living is higher) So it's felt more than half done on what we'd like to see happen. I still want to paint the living room area, bedroom and guest room, but haven't had the energy.

It's been the hottest summer in recorded history here and that was pretty harsh. Last summer was the 4th hottest on record and since we moved twice, (once into the rental while we were looking, then again in July when we moved here) i think that affected/effected our energy levels.

It's been a low season energetically in general, almost hibernating like, which i'm not really good at. I know God's working behind the scenes on some matters. Just because things aren't all "bells and whistles", doesn't mean that things aren't happening. It's just seems like it's been a long slow walk up a very dry hill. God's still speaking in it, though more quietly than He has in the past with me.

This Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur i felt a shift in the Spirit. Rosh Hashanah was the first cooler weekend than we have had, the morning was in the 70's and i could feel the breeze on my face. I felt His presence hovering around me in a way i haven't felt in a long while. Four months ago, my Dad died, and grief has been pretty strong. (actually, i think i've been grieving over a lot of things these last 17 months, but that was the proverbial "straw that broke the camels back".) So when i felt His presence i felt my spirit rise up and sigh in relief.

I'm not really sure what this next year holds, but i know His Hand is guiding as ever.

Shalom Ya All-

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