Monday, December 31, 2007
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Birthright born of Battlefield
This valiant tribe contends
Keys to Kingdom Hearts
Friendship Advent mends.
Tarry to rekindle
Sacred pause remind
Embracing marrows moment
Sojourn of Spirit
Novitiate gauntlet passed
Renegade of Royalty
Passion taunted grasp
Revelation brimming Truth
Burning to conceal
Loves ransoming of death
A Signet ring to steal.
Prodigals to Princes
Prostitutes to Queens
Paradox of Destiny
Dance and Dirge
For Love to Dare.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Blessings and Shalom to Ya ALL- during this special time.
It's been a hard 07 for the Thomas household...and this year i found it more than difficult to "get into" the seasonal stuff. Finally put up the tree (little thing-fiber optic) i've always loved the Jewel tone colours with some added bling to it. I'll be off and about today picking up some good grub and happy drink, while "Practicing the Presence" as Brother Lawrence puts it, in the form of added patience!
We have some very special people that are gonna "Touch IN" so my heart feels warm with anticipation. Some of the "Tribe" are in London for Holiday and Video Chat helps so much to feel closer. (Haven't gotten that translating gift in the Spirit yet so Skype or I CHAT will have to suffice.)
Touch us with the Advent of Your LOVE and let our hearts be Your manger where You rest and abide. In Jesus Name, Amen!
Saturday, December 15, 2007
This season is filled with such performance - the pressure to buy the "perfect" gift X's the multitude of family, friends and obligatory acquaintances. It would be more honest to when we see that "perfect"- special something, somewhere else in the year to randomly pick it up and send it. Perhaps it's just the place where God sent His Beloved to advent His love. Just perhaps, the most wonderful gift we can share and behold in each other is the Advent of Friendship.
Just my thoughts today.
To those that are my beloved- Thank you for the Gift of your friendship it's extraordinary.
Friday, December 14, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Ok a bit more background...Ryan Lee Sharp and Holly Sharp ARE... the cobalt season... I really like what was written on their CD...
"This album was made possiable by the freely-given time and energy of several good people. It was recorded in several homes across Northern California and Texas. On each son you'll hear home noises, reminding us that the messy place called "home" is where we really live. No matter how we dress up the album, the nuance of real life comes through. In all our searching for ideals realized, the four walls that enclose our lives might tell who we are more than our words ever will. Shalom"
For those of you who want to take a closer gander... The album is ... "in search of a unified theory"- www.thecobaltseason.com
It's worth checking out.... and vesting into their vision.
Holly and Ryan... really enjoyed the music and the sharing. (and getting to pray for your wee one!) Nice barter of gifts!!! LOL!!! this crazy tapestry tribe keeps getting bigger! (and please! put that Larry Norman song on the next CD- get Tripp to sing it!!!!
Shalom- glad to share the wealth!
Friday, October 19, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Praying With George Herbert (1593-1633)
Immortal Heat, O let Thy greater flame
Attract the lesser to it; let those fires
Which shall consume the world first make it tame,
And kindle in our hearts such true desires.
As may consume our lusts, and make Thee way:
Then shall our hearts pant Thee, then shall our brain
All her invention on Thine altar lay,
And there in hymns send back Thy fire again.
Our eyes shall see Thee, which before saw dust,
Dust blown by wit, till that they both were blind:
Thou shalt recover all Thy goods in kind,
Who wert disseized by usurping lust:
All knees shall bow to Thee; all wits shall rise,
And praise Him Who did make and mend our eyes.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
There are no words.......
This was taken by my friend Billy - the day after sept. 11th
Monday, September 10, 2007
ok so this is classic Keith Green.... the message is still as real as when he first wrote it ... over 20 years ago...... i was re-reading No Compromise.... and got convicted again THANK GOD.... ..
my heart isn't dead after all these years!!!!! for those of you who remember........ i remember the day he died..... seems somethings are eternal..... like this message!!!
Sunday, September 09, 2007
John Mark McMillian....... i agree in Jesus name.... that Stephen's death wasn't in vain... and there will be that move of HIS hand... It's HIS promise to you...
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Over the last few months i have been in much meandering and pondering mode.
We speak of the Body of Christ in all these mystical terms, abstract concepts and anemically pale reflections; which just reinforces it being as elusive as ever.
So it got me thinking some time ago as to the literal BODY and what that entails and encompasses.
A little back ground here- I am from the "tent making" perspective, a licensed Physical Therapist Assistant & a Licensed Massage and Bodyworker Therapist. Which basically consists of palliatively easing or abolishing pain, restoring function, maximizing independence and facilitating Well Being. If you think that sounds like a lot, i would have to concur with the assessment. Actually, somedays it seems impossible and i can feel completely inept at the task. I guess after 20 years of working with "the body"- which, i have to stress is the frame for an individual with hopes, dreams, heartaches, failures and abilities, i've learned to approach things with a skill set that needs to be flexible enough to bend beyond what i think "should be".
If i had to look just at the "should be's" - We shouldn't have to be dealing with sickness, disability, pain or anything of the like, whether it be physical, emotional or spiritual. We should be enjoying life in the Garden and being able to walk with God in the cool of the day, to deeply and playfully enjoy His companionship, to the fullest extent that we were fashioned and formed to do so.
Since "the Fall"- which ever way you look at it.... (literal, metaphorically or narratively)- Ya gotta admit one thing...
It changed everything.
One of the things i felt Holy Spirit impress on my heart and spirit was that ... it was a Very Hard Fall....
and it broke many bones. For those who like the research part and the mystical.... check out Thomas Merton on the topic matter... he's got some cool downloads from Abba God.
From a rehabilitation standpoint, a fall from a very high building (if it didn't kill you)- usually results in numerous fractures, contusions, head trauma- cognitive impairment, respiratory compromise, internal organ involvement as well as external and internal bleeding; with no certainty of previous level of function. (and that is just a sketch.)
Now put that on a soul/ spirit level and that is basically what we are looking at when it comes to the need of healing, restoration and rehabilitation of our triune being. I understand from a scripture stand point that "in Christ we ARE a New Creation."- However, according to being Born again, that is by Spirit. What of the walking out space, where we are committed to Him living through us in THIS physical frame?
Granted, i'm coming from a slightly Greek perspective, with a touch of Latin Language if i start describing body part from the medical. The Hebrew mindset is a bit more overlapping and layered in the Spirit-Soul merge... but that is for another post.
At this point, i feel as though there is a mural sized canvas, with a lot of multimedia at my disposal, but i'm stuck with a 12 pack crayon box. So i guess i'm praying for the childlike faith and grace to scribble outside the lines for a while.
So, for me the question is where to even start....
When i inquired of the Lord, the first thing that entered my being.... was the literal word for Holy Spirit... which in Hebrew is Rauch Ha Kodesh. Translated means.... the Holy Breath of God.
Isn't that where it began anyway? When Adam was formed, God Breathed into his nostrils.
So how to we Breath Him? Interestingly enough there are 4 parts in a breath measure (to use a musical reference there, since breath has rhythms based in intensity)
First there is an inhalation, then.... a pause, then exhalation and then another pause. The term in David Psalms that means pause or ponder is the word Selah... which means think on these things. That is not as much as an abstract point as you might think. It is the 2 pauses in the breath measure that chemical changes in the lungs and in the mind take place. The body is thinking and shifting in those moments. Most of the time however, we are too busy looking or anxiety seeking the fastest inhalation after the last exhalation.
For now - i'm saying SELAH....... just to ponder breath and see where the Holy Breath will lead.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
This weekend i was with some combined Emergent Cohort groups... to have lunch with Brian McLaren.... it was rich - thick- and the unity was sooo refreshing.... Brian really wears Grace well.
This came from his website... so just google his name..... and get the skinny. shalom ya all... deep blessings.
But enjoy.... i love the paradox
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
ok... for those of you who don't know.... this song has always been dear to my heart and spirit.... i happen to love the raw nature of her cry....
so.... for those of you who "get me".... and still love me... thanks... you then know ..... why i love this song.....
covered it in the 80's.... and it's still true.
glad He knows my heart.... and puts the sword - back in my hand... and gives me the grace to fight.
To all those tired warriors.... my toast to you...
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
To me this defines the prophetic....
Simply put...... it's laying your head on Abba's chest.... and listening for His Heartbeat for another.... the words of life.. encouragement.... and love. There are those of you who think you can't dance in the prophetic.... or romance with the King....... Just start moving... it doesn't have to look pretty... Let Him lead.... with your voice, dance, art, creativity... He is faithful to meet you there.
shalom........ xo cat
Monday, August 20, 2007
I happen to love these guys.... Stephen Roach did his thing on the last CD... even has a spoken word piece on it as well. - They also have an interesting book out... called "enter the worship circle"- that has some fresh manna of thought.......
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Saturday, July 28, 2007
The revelation of God is whole and pulls our lives together. The signposts of God are clear and point out the right road. The life-maps of God are right, showing the way to joy. The directions of God are plain and easy on the eyes. God's reputation is twenty-four-carat gold, with a lifetime guarantee. The decisions of God are accurate down to the nth degree.
Gold and Cobbled Stoney Streets.....
Show me your mansions,
the prisons here are desolate.
I need a window of grace,
a door opened to mercy.
I'm looking through lattice,
wood fractured by the hurricane.
Landscapes have changed.
now barren and arid of comfort.
Where are the trees of youth,
extending branches of hope.
Gardens of Joy,
baited breath waiting.
Show me Your gold,
that my life be Your street.
Cobbled, stoney broken,
on which Your feet....... would dance.
Poem... 7/28/07- cathryn thomas...... U becomes the Y.
Just cuz it's too good NOT to post.....
and there have been too many that have died NOT to post it... xo TO THE TROOPS!
Bless you and LOVE YOU.....
Semper FI! cathryn
Friday, July 27, 2007
For whatever reason- while i was up in High Country... i did get the sense i was surveying a battlefield and a pending one as well. I could see the present situations... seems the whole tribe has been battling something or another ... as we are all walking in some new territory. But- i was also sensing some of the next front... as i looked across the mountain range and could see 3 states.. it does help to be hanging round some of my gifted prophetic friends and it stirs the flame in me as well.
The one thing militarily i know is you NEVER- NEVER - NEVER - give up the High Ground. (ps that is why i'm emphatic about Israel NOT giving up the Golan's- never mind the best winery in Israel is there!!) Case in point, you can see the whole sea of Galilee from there, and could hit it with a missile in seconds... It's much easier to fight from a High Ground position. But to maintain a high ground position in the Spirit really requires staying in worship and praise- and to be honest, to kvetch is easier. Depression- apathy- ambivalence are always waiting for a sneak attack... and usually strife joins in just to stir the pot a little more.
So how do we maintain a High Ground position, what is needed in our spirit and character to Stand- and when having done all - Still Stand (according to the Word)
My friend Anna had a word from the Lord about Fortitude...and to pray for it... so she looked it up and to be honest, dang, i'm adding it to my prayer request for myself and for those already in the trenches- (emotionally, physically and spiritually.)
According to Noah Webster- Fortitude is: "Strength of mind to meet or endure unfalteringly pain, adversity, or peril; patience and constant courage. Is the strength or firmness of mind or soul to endure pain or adversity patiently and determinedly. it may be defined as "Still courage" or "enduring courage" it is that quality which is able not merely to endure pain or trial, but steadily to confront dangers that cannot be actively opposed, or against which one has no adequate defense; it takes courage to charge a trench but Fortitude to withstand an enemy's fire. Resolution is of the Mind; endurance is partly physical; it requires resolution to resist temptation, endurance to resist hunger and cold.
Wow that is full on and got some blue flame heat of revelation on it!
I guess if Faith is according to Hebrew 11:1
THE MESSAGE VERSION...
The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It's our handle on what we can't see. The act of faith is what distinguished our ancestors, set them above the crowd.
NEW AMERICAN STANDARD...
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen
NOW FAITH is the assurance (the confirmation,]the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see and the conviction of their reality [faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses].
It does take strength and courage to step out in faith, but it also takes fortitude to stand unwaveringly, when all of hell is firing against you.
Lord, have mercy, grant us Faith- grace, strength, courage and FORTITUDE - align our will- heart, mind and spirit with yours, not only to Do Your will but Be your Heart extended - even when the battle is raging. In Jesus Mighty and Matchless name... amen.
Love you guys- deeply, cathryn
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Psalms 42:7 Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me.
For the last few days i've been in High Ground country in lovely Cullowhee NC- staying with my friends Tim & Rebbecca Heiskill- they have a organic-ee home fellowship.. with a few ragamuffins staying with them...they are right on the cusp of Western Carolina University... literal stones throw to the campus. Which is strategic- their kids always get hooked up with edgy worshipers/artists that are not in the typical christianeez venue- and are gonna be pulling in some Musicians to do live shows on campus... what i would call "sideways" ministry. Not like direct proselytizing isn't good.. if you heard Larry Norman's "youtube" post... sometimes direct is awesome...
But i like the "sideways approach" - a bit more, because your coming along side people and not speaking at them, but standing in the approximated- Right or Left ear.... more like friendship and introducing Jesus in new ways.
There were a few reasons i felt like i needed to "go to high ground"- i was at the highest point in NC Mountains.. where i could see 3 states from that position... and it reminded me of States of Mind- Body and Spirit. Rebecca's comment while we traveled through the rolling hills... was that we were actually IN God's MIND... and it so felt it....
It's been pretty intense on this front... and to go to a High Place and Breath was necessary. Just to be able to continue standing.
The waterfall photo was at a place called "dry falls"- I kinda like the juxtaposition and paradoxical reflection of it. My spirit was in need of watering and there is something about the raw nature of the Mountains.
I had to go past the boundary that separated the waterfall from where i was standing... (rebecca poor dear.. went into mom mode and basically thought i was nuts... and was fearful that Something would happen)- but once i got out there... she got it.... and her spirit was at peace.....
But that seems to be the place God brings me... past the man made boundaries and to get close enough to the real that it's awesome, powerful and dangerous. I think the quest for truth in any situation... is not for the faint of heart. The perseverance involved not to get overwhelmed or thrown into a apathetic slumbering spirit requires a lot of energy and determination. None of it could even be transversed without a God hand to get me up the next rock- with the stability to keep me from falling... or giving up.
Bottom line... my spirit got filled up.. and is at full tank.. but could use some prayer.
shalom, ya all! Blessings - Cathryn
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
ya might want to check it out!! Go Brandon!!! Love ya dude!....... how's the wee ones?? Handful of boys i take it!! oy vey! doing good dude!!
love to Jewels... and the 3 ragamuffins - crumb snatchers!!
Monday, July 16, 2007
ok i tried to post it... when i was way toooo tired!!!! - so this is the more awake version..... sometimes it's not about the words...... so to speak... but be sung...... So this is what i feel is the heart of the emergent.... and the place to reach the nations.... no ...it's not christianeezeeeeeees thankfully.
Tired of that.... but the raw nature of questions.... and soul passion. So... i agree and say Yes and amen!! Can we go there????? Can we touch it....??
Can we feel it????? minor chords... of heart strings??? Just asking???
ok for all of you young'ins who don't know this name... it's Mr. Phil Keggy....
Jimmy Hendrix's was onced asked...."how does it feel to be the best guitar player in the world"..... Jimmy answered..... "ask Phil Keaggy!"
He's also missing part of his ring finger.... (lamented moment with God- so the story goes)----- so this boy... now much older.... is still amazing and has a passion for the Father heart of God that will flat put you out on the floor. My biggest issues is that most of the christian Pop that is out there.... lacks the place where in the Psalms it says to play SKILL-FULLY....... ummmm the dudes got it down... still can't believe it's him solo! so enjoy.... he's got the Master's Touch!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
I honestly have to say..... that during my "struggle" years with God... this was a worship song for me.... and within the Emergent Church....i think many would concur. The template in which we "met" Jesus..... is as varied as snowflakes..... but the religious dogma that we all in some form and function encountered- left us ..... searching and yet... returning. Returning to the essence of relationship with the All Forgiving Abba. I kinda think of this as a Mantra.... (knowing i'll get my ass kicked for using that term... by some)
We cling and then reject....
Perhaps it's the "leave and cleave" part of it all..... that what our parents.... and spiritual parents held to.... we need to discover on our own terms.... but Never negating our heritage. So this is for the emergent..... in all the revealing and unfolding......
Let the pursuit of Love be our salient hearts cry...... with the amp and reverb set on 10-
Thursday, July 05, 2007
This is Derek and Amy Chapman.... one of our dearest.... and i wanted to share what they are up to...
they are an amazing couple that carry big hearts and vision for the lives they touch and the cities in which they vest their time. If you want to go to their link... check out the Tribe section of this blog.... and hit the D&A- The Chapman's link. If you want to help frame something amazing - please give.
Thank you... and bless you- Cathryn
Some of you know that Derek and I have been involved with an arts project called Mangola. This project has so far gathered leaders from America and Europe, and we are going to host a festival and outdoor performance event in Austin next spring. Last October, we as a group prayed and walked the city, speaking with artists and thinking creatively about what kind of event would most challenge and bless Austin. The event we are planning will encompass music, film, visual art, and fashion, and we believe it will speak into Austin's identity in His kingdom.
Derek and I have long had a vision of events that have prophetic significance for cities; events which are not just held in a church but held in the public, and which engage the public to think about the future of their city. Austin is one of the fastest growing cities in America, and now home to the headquarters of major technology corporations. While being the government capital of Texas, it also is considered a cultural capital, with large resources given to film, dance, theater and music. As a haven of some of the most creative thinkers in America, it is also vulnerable to the things that artists are often vulnerable to: idols of entertainment, pornography, and depression are among some of the issues here. We want to hold an event that speaks into these issues.
We are holding a very important group meeting this August in France, where two of the leaders live. At this event we will pull together some of the final planning and strategy. We very much need your prayers that this comes together in God's way. It was a big decision to gather the leaders in France, as many of the Americans on the team have small resources to buy airline tickets.
We and the rest of the team are looking for some people who would be interested in becoming patrons of the arts--and patrons of these leaders, who are willing to come to France but lack the money to do so. Would you consider helping us?
We are hoping to raise $11,000, and have set up a website at:
It is very easy to pledge and donate online, using your credit card or checking account. If you want to help us and feel uncomfortable doing online donations, please let me know. We realize this is a lot to raise in a short amount of time but God can do anything, so we decided to try!
Thank you so much for considering this and we hope you all are having a fabulous summer! Please write us if you have any questions.
love and blessings,
Amy and Derek
p.s. Please feel free to forward this to someone who may know who is interested in supporting the arts!
Fundraiser website at:
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Seems we can't get off the prayer wall even when we want to! I guess we do have a choice- but if that choice is based in wisdom and love.... there is really only ONE answer. A partnership with the Divine! There is a place where we co-labor in His sufferings for His children; where we gain His heart on the matter and how intensely that feels.
He is not immune to our heartaches... infact... He embraces them- as His own. I'm understanding David's heart cry more and more-
Psalm 119:54 (The Message)
49-56 Remember what you said to me, your servant—
I hang on to these words for dear life!
These words hold me up in bad times;
yes, your promises rejuvenate me.
The insolent ridicule me without mercy,
but I don't budge from your revelation.
I watch for your ancient landmark words,
and know I'm on the right track.
But when I see the wicked ignore your directions,
I'm beside myself with anger.
I set your instructions to music
and sing them as I walk this pilgrim way.
I meditate on your name all night, God,
treasuring your revelation, O God.
Still, I walk through a rain of derision
because I live by your Word and counsel.
I'm feeling terrible—I couldn't feel worse! Get me on my feet again.
You promised, remember? When I told my story, you responded; train me
well in your deep wisdom. Help me understand these things inside and
out so I can ponder your miracle-wonders. My sad life's dilapidated, a
falling-down barn; build me up again by your Word. Barricade the road
that goes Nowhere; grace me with your clear revelation. I choose the
true road to Somewhere, I post your road signs at every curve and
corner. I grasp and cling to whatever you tell me; God, don't let me
down! I'll run the course you lay out for me if you'll just show me
I love his honesty and determination- that no matter what.... cling to truth and revelation.
Guess that's where i'm at right now....
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Now this song is in some hymn books... i- it was in the Baptist one where i went to church as a kid.! They had no idea that Larry's quote was that he "grew his hair out to leave room for his brains"!- if they did... i bet it never would have made it in.... just a little FYI
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
1985- she ministered to me then... and NOW.... just a flash back.. to my history... and way before my full healing... God was prepairing the way.... Thanks God. -
So i'm in a worship mode... it's what i do in the heat of battle... where my heart is shattered.... torn and wide open for his love, grace and mercy to pour in.... so please... worship with me... if the Angels can do it 24/7 around the throne... tap in.....
Jason Upton has one of the smoky-est. anointings i have felt.... his heart is tender... and passionate. Enter in....
shalom , cathryn
Raise up a Prophetic Generation... Oh Lord... let it be soaked in worship.... loving with a fierce heart... and unity unsurpassing. Let Your Kingdom come.... Thy will be done... oh Father... here on earth... just as it is in Heaven.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Ok i know it's just a smigon- but honestly- can't help but love it! Bars are bending- and Freedom is just outside the door- lets walk thru it!!! OK?!!!! Onward and Upward!
Monday, June 25, 2007
Just got back from hoping the big Pond and being with parts of the tribe- Just sharing a few photos- i've been threatened with tar and feathers if i post any of the OTHER photo's-
Rich time at Shannon's- girl you freakin ROCK- and Andrew brought the meat all the way from Orkney! Seems symbolic- Andrew bringing meat- cuz of the depth of his teaching gift. Shannon hosting (which she does to the thickest extreme like fine wine and rich cheese- i felt sooooo blessed and full from your love)
a very special part of this crazy tribal circus of artisans & intercessors/healers. - Shannon, Amy, Tamzin, Kerstin, Han, Mark & Andrew- felt the rest of the tribe nod- and agree in spirit. Such brave hearts and Fierce lovers of God with Vision for His Kingdom!
I could taste England on my tongue the entire time... the rich land- the milk -that feeds the soul. The Queenly parts- Tower Bridge - (thanks Mark for the prophetic word the night before- i felt it as i passed under it!) My heart feels saturated and carry touch stones of England's Shore.
There were hard parts- and thank you - to each and every one of you that blessed into this home - and gave me the PROVISION, --grace and prayers that facilitated God's hand! I really saw and felt the Body of Christ show up in a mighty way.!!! THAT ministered to my heart on such a deep level... i'm undone and astounded! IT could NOT happen if it were not for such provision on every level!! THANK YOU!!!!! Send it back 100 fold Lord JESUS!
I think the resounding crescendo in MY heart is that HE really wants to take it to the furthest places of Heart healing ! No matter how torturous the waters... HE says that "they will not overtake you".... now it may toss you about some.... in the fray of battle. Holding on to the Hem of His garment....... our life line.... in the sea of emotions and spirit....hopelessly tangled by the blue strand and covered by the skirt of Boaz- "Kinsman Redeemer!" "Here comes a people unfaded"- thanks Brandon for that image... where the Glory doesn't fade on our faces - despite the pain, anguish and fierceness of battle! Let HIS Ransom take it's full measure....... and let us Behold the Lamb!
I love you guys!! I know there is gonna be a fuller download later.... it's just simmering on the back burner of my spirit.
shalom to the deepest places.!!
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Ok- Just a little humor as it seems the tribe is dealing in "issue land"- Let's walk it out together eh?- Knowing Love Covers!!!! A multitude! This was one of those e-mail forwards.... i couldn't resist!
Baptist Search Committee
We do not have a happy report to give. We have not been able to find a suitable candidate for this church, though we have one promising prospect.
Thank you for your suggestions. We have followed up on each one with interviews or by calling at least three references. The following is our confidential report.
ADAM: Good man but has problems with his wife. One reference told us how he and his wife enjoyed walking nude in the woods.
NOAH: Former pastorate of 120 years with no converts. Prone to unrealistic building projects.
JOSEPH: A big thinker, but a braggart; believes in dream interpreting and
has a prison record.
MOSES: A modest and meek man, but poor communicator; even stutters
at times. Sometimes blows his stack and acts rashly in business meetings. Some say he left an earlier church over a murder charge.
DEBORAH: One word --- Female.
DAVID: The most promising leader of all until we discovered the affair he had with his neighbor's wife.
SOLOMON: Great preacher, but serious woman problem.
ELIJAH: Prone to depression; collapses under pressure.
HOSEA: A tender and loving pastor, but our people could never handle his
JONAH: Told us he was swallowed up by a great fish. He said the fish later spit him out on the shore near here. We hung up.
AMOS: Too much of a country hick. Backward and unpolished. With some
seminary training, he might have promise; but he has a hang-up against
JOHN: Says he is a Baptist, but doesn't dress like one. May be too Pentecostal. Tends to lift both hands in the air to worship when he gets excited. You know we limit to one hand. Sleeps in the outdoors, has a weird diet, and provokes denominational leaders.
PETER: Too blue collar. Has a bad temper, even said to have cursed. He's a loose cannon.
PAUL: Powerful CEO type and fascinating preacher. However, he's short on tact, unforgiving with young ministers, harsh, and has been known to preach all night.
TIMOTHY: Too young.
JESUS: Has had popular times, but once when his church grew to 5000, He managed to offend them all; and his church dwindled down to twelve people.
Seldom stays in one place very long. And, of course, he is single.
JUDAS: His references are solid. A steady plodder. Conservative.
Good connections. Knows how to handle money. We're inviting him to preach this Sunday in view of a call.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Since the Lion of Judah (Jesus) is Jewish..... i think there must be times that He's shaking His head wondering....
Just What are they thinking....... ????
So here is my toast to Judah - and i can just hear------- Oy VEY being roared over our fickle hearts at times!!!
shalom ya all- xo cat
Friday, May 11, 2007
Judah's Kiss Signet Promise.
White cool morning light caressing spring leaves
Burning questions in my mind
Can i catch mine
or did i forget where i put it.
Your breath finds my face again
Reminding of red hair
and sunbeam glory....
Tender whispers of truth
Smelling of honeysuckle
Judah's kiss warm fire
His mane falling on my neck
My heart trembles in His Gaze
Vibration purrs – Roars of Thunder
I AM ravished by His Love
May's Day stretched out as arms
Resting on His chest- each rise and fall
I sink deeper in the rhythm
My heart securely fastened
Seamed by threads of alabaster love.
Breastplate necklace memorial stones
You have never forgotten-
Beloved one fair and free
My Love pursues and tires not
Signet ring- My Promises are everlasting.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
THIS IS JUST A REMINDER......
Suddenly the Lord was up on his feet like someone roused from deep
sleep, shouting like a drunken warrior. He hit his enemies hard, sent
them running, yelping, not daring to look back. He disqualified Joseph
as leader, told Ephraim he didn't have what it takes, And chose the
Tribe of Judah instead, Mount Zion, which he loves so much. He built
his sanctuary there, resplendent, solid and lasting as the earth
The LORD is a warrior; the LORD is his name.
But this is what the LORD says: "Yes, captives will be taken from
warriors, and plunder retrieved from the fierce; I will contend with
those who contend with you, and your children I will save.
But the LORD is with me like a mighty warrior; so my persecutors will
stumble and not prevail. They will fail and be thoroughly disgraced;
their dishonor will never be forgotten.
A David Psalm
1-7Your strength, God, is the king's strength. Helped, he's hollering
You gave him exactly what he wanted;
you didn't hold back.
You filled his arms with gifts;
you gave him a right royal welcome.
He wanted a good life; you gave it to him,
and then made it a long life as a bonus.
You lifted him high and bright as a cumulus cloud,
then dressed him in rainbow colors.
(wow did you read that.... it was that rainbow cloud..... i never knew
it was in scripture)
You pile blessings on him;
you make him glad when you smile.
Is it any wonder the king loves God?
that he's sticking with the Best?
8-12 With a fistful of enemies in one hand
and a fistful of haters in the other,
You radiate with such brilliance
that they cringe as before a furnace.
Now the furnace swallows them whole,
the fire eats them alive!
You purge the earth of their progeny,
you wipe the slate clean.
All their evil schemes, the plots they cook up,
have fizzled—every one.
You sent them packing;
they couldn't face you.
13 Show your strength, God, so no one can miss it.
We are out singing the good news!
Love to the deepest places...... He's already Won it............ xo cathryn
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Liquid love & Bonding eyes.
What of this restlessness, the tension between the Heavenlies and the creation. The cry for Daddy to reach down from His throne and hug us--- intensely. To rock this frame into well being, to sing to our spirit in the tones of love in which our beings resonate as a matched tuning fork.
The genetic encoding of our spirit, the finger print of God on our inner most being.
Somewhere between the conscious and the unconscious we are searching.
Searching to know and be known, to have our depth & breath defined in the infinite. To sense with our Spirit the vibration of the spoken word- let there be light. He fashioned man from dust and breathed into his nostrils the essence of Spirit, as the ember of life was ignited he breathed back.
Was Gods face so close that Adam gazed intently into the eyes of love and felt whole?
Now far from the garden do we search out that same gaze in the beings of His likeness?
To search the iris and the pupil to see the reflection of the God Head.
To know the bonding love of God in the Christ like reality of those He calls sons and daughters, and in whom Jesus calls friends.
To be a friend of God is reflecting His divine unconditional love towards those He loves.
To be His hands, arms and heart that draws creation back to the Creator.
To become the very heart rhythm of God and allow that to be the driving beat of our lives. To let our fingers become liquid love that brings the balm of Gilead to the wound, frail and vulnerable Body of Christ.
ps- Mark- glad your my Judah Brother!- Know you are loved.!
Sunday, March 25, 2007
THIS IS A FIRE RAINBOW - THE RAREST OF ALL NATURALLY OCCURRING ATMOSPHERIC PHENOMENA.
CLOUDS HAVE TO BE CIRRUS, AT LEAST 20K FEET IN THE AIR, WITH JUST THE RIGHT AMOUNT OF ICE CRYSTALS AND THE SUN HAS TO HIT THE CLOUDS AT PRECISELY 58 DEGREES.
This struck me this morning- The Lord has been speaking to me about "Windows of Time"- and about His Promises...
These windows are orchestrated by God... for appointments with HIM.
Where He can take the ice crystals around our hearts and turn them into Fire - with all the colors of our true identity.
Rainbow of promise ..... faith to believe again, trust that eradicates betrayal, hope that is not deferred, but embraced.
I wrote a song when i was 12- Rainbow in tear filled eyes......
Deep within the darkness lies quiet- silent tears
A heart bleeds from anguish - in a world filled with fears.
Lost and lonely people, pain within their eyes.
No answer to an empty life - each day another dies.
But a promise was given .....
a long long time ago.
That a rainbow would be the sign.
We need the Son light
to make the rainbow live and see the hope in others lives.
Can you see the rainbow IN tear filled eyes,
in the early light of a new sun rise
Can you see the rainbow THROUGH tear filled eyes
in the early light of a new Son rise.
I can only show you, if you choose to see..
the rays of the rainbow that's living within me...
the choice is up to you my friend....
to know the truth within......
surpassing all the fear and doubt .....
that binds you in it's sin.
Can you see the rainbow ..... IN tear filled eyes....
in the early light of a new sun rise.
Can you see the rainbow ..... THROUGH tear filled eyes....
in the early light of a new Son rise.
That was written ~ 27 years ago... when i first came to Know Jesus. When i saw that picture... it just came flooding back. (pardon the pun)- now if i could just remember the chords.!
It's just that there are so many promises that He wants to resurrect in our Spirits and Hearts.... Where the sins of volition &&& the sins of omission have tried to portray as lies.
One of my favorite lines from one of Stephen Roaches poems is.....
"Your promises are structures ALREADY formed."
They are solid- everlasting..... There is a rainbow around the Throne.... as a reminder to God....
That rainbow in the picture reminded me that HE loves me beyond measure. He is Able to take everyone of my failures, hurts and betrayals and paint a picture of HIS PROMISE... that HE is big enough to Love me - not just IN them.... but THROUGH them.
Just to add to this... The Lord showed me - from His Word..... that HE even speaks of one of HIS rarest phenomena I think that it's over the top..... soooooo i'm adding the verse....
You lifted him high and bright as a cumulus cloud,
then dressed him in rainbow colors.
shalom to the deepest places, cathryn
To Dying Well Daily, Living like it's Worth it and LOVING FIERCELY,
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Many of you know Israel Sarpolus.... his passion, his worship, his
fiercely love of Abba and seeing His kingdom come......
Israel went home to be with Jesus after a 2 year battle with cancer.....
I have never seen a family stand on the Word and Worship God through
all the pain as i have seen through Israel, Haley (his wife) and Asher
his 3 year old.....and Suede (the eldest son).
The legacy and the testimony of this whole ordeal has forever changed
the way I pray..
I now know what it means ...
Eph. 6:13 "Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you
will be able to resist in the evil day and having done everything, to
Thank you all who have been standing with them....... Israel is NOW
Standing with HIM.
Monday, March 12, 2007
I know this is going to be a long post... but felt the Lord say to put it here..... It's a prophetic word from Wendy Alec- from the UK- she's written a book... more like listening prayer and revelation as to what the Lord has given her.... it's amazing and sobering....
Wendy Alec- Journal of the Unknown Prophets
Last Day's Assignments Against the Elect...
"My Children perish." Jesus' voice was soft---- so soft that it was
barely audible. And then He turned to me, his beautiful countenance
ravaged with grief. And as He looked at me, His expression became
terrible with the heat of His emotion--- but al at once some how I
knew that none of His hot anger was directed towards His children.
Oh yes as He looked upon His Household , He saw many stumbling and
faltering in the fierce onslaughts and he grieved terribly for us.
But no, His anger burned hot against the hosts of hell and satanic
princes that He saw lined up in the spiritual realm, meticulously
rehearsed in their strategies and their wiles.
THE UNLEASHING OF THE ENDTIME SEDUCING SPIRITS
And suddenly it was as though a heavy, heavenly veil was drawn back in
the Spirit realm, and i saw the satanic princes in their battle dress
standing in their chariots, directing the great mass of hellish
battalions and powers and principalities. And they were standing as a
great and seemingly fearsome mass in a line that stretched to
eternity, waiting. And then a great shofar was sounded and the fallen
satanic princes and generals took their places in front of the
battalions, as the great rumbling of Satan's chariot's thundered. And
all as one they bowed their heads as the prince of darkness made his
entrance. And as he stood their all terrible in his damnable arrogance
and rebellion, he lifted his sword high to the heavenlies and again,
as one man, I saw the princes and their battalions follow suit, and I
heard Lucifer's spine chilling cry: It is Time! And the hordes of hell
resounded with a great and terrible cry. It is time. And as Lucifer
turned to his fallen princes, I could hear his malicious hiss: "It is
time to target the champions."
And immediately it was as if I was back under the trees on a
beautiful English lawn, in front of the manor house where Jesus was
standing. His countenance filled with such beauty, such grace – but
his eyes seemed filled with a deep and unstoppable pain. He reached
out his hand to me: "It has begun."
I could hardly decipher his words, such was his anguish that it was
as though he was choking with grief: "My children are falling, it has
begun." And still I could hardly make out his words for the great
emotion that came from him and the tears could not keep from falling
down his cheeks as he came towards me: "The targeting of the
champions. My Father's champions here on earth. The hosts of hell have
been assigned for the past decades, waiting for this hellish moment in
the spirit realm, listening for the release of my end time move from
heaven. They have heard the mighty rush of my holy angels and so in
turn they have unleashed the most violent satanic assault that earth
has yet seen since the days of my birth when Satan's wrath was
unleashed through Herod against the babes in arms in a huge murderous
I stared at him transfixed. And again a terrible grieving filled his
countenance. "My children, my generals, my leaders, my priests..."
His voice was barely audible. I could almost feel his agony, for
indeed as he thought of you and I, he was suffering for us. "The
champions of my father's household think that they are prepared. Some
do not fear the enemy." He hesitated. "And that is good and right, but
they also do not fear the Father. They rely on their own strength, on
their own integrity, and on their own valor He looked unwaveringly
into my eyes.
"It's hard for my Father to reach these, for they are blinded by
their own deceptions and will easily be overcome by the battalions by
you just glimpsed. For they will succumb to the snare of the great
deceiver of their souls – pride. But my grieving at this moment is not
"My Father loves his children." He looked at me. "You cannot yet
understand with what tremendous passion and compassion the Father
holds for his redeemed ones. They are His greatest treasures in the
universe. He delights in His children. He longs for their fellowship –
for their communion with them. The Father does not base his love for
His household on their giftings or talent, or on those who in the
world's eyes have so much to offer. But he has delighted to choose the
foolish things of the earth, for in his great and unfathomable wisdom,
He knew that those who realized that they are the most undeserving
will be those who have fully embraced the fact that without his love
they are completely unqualified.
The Father knows that these are the ones who will lean their minds
and hearts unquestionably on his being. Those who limp with the scars
of his chastening and of their own inadequacy – those who know that
within their selves there is no good thing except their hope in Him.
These are his champions – and My daughter. These are the prime targets
for the onslaught of the enemy that you have just seen.
Seduction, Lust and Jezebel
This assignment is more easily discerned but far more lethal in its
outward consequences, for it devours its prey. The intense seduction
lures my children into the enticement of sin but eventually but
eventually leaves them stripped of their ministry, calling, reputation
and sometimes even their relationship with myself and the Father and
their eternal salvation. He sighed deeply.
The Father knows that these very ones who are drawn to him because
they knew the very weaknesses of their own souls – like the woman
whose story I promised would be told eternally. I spoke: "The woman
who washed your feet?"
Jesus smiled tenderly. "Those who have forgiven much, love much. In
this last generation many came to us from the greatest ensnarement's
and bondage's. Once they saw our great love for them they became our
greatest champions and bond servants, for their gratitude for
receiving such a redemption, was unfathomable.
"These are the ones who have become close and tender with me – who
would follow me unto death."
"But if they would follow you unto death Lord Jesus – and they hear
your voice – then how could they fall to seducing spirits?" I ask,
that chill gripping me again, sensing the answer.
"Every weakness that these ones experiences in their lives..." His
expression was so grave... "every fissure, each wound, each broken
place that lies unhealed – these satanic powers and principalities and
demons shall now target."
"Many, many of my children did not receive healing of their minds,
emotions and souls in this last generation. And because they have
lived in the household of God for years, many do not even realize that
these scarred places exist.
"These last days assignments have been meticulously strategised and
that is the very strength of their evil – they have been tailor-made
to each of my champions. They know the urgent driving unmet needs of
the soul, the generational bondage's of each individual called by me
to impact this generation; the lack of nurturing; the deep unhealed
rejections and hurts of the emotions; the fatherlessness; the need for
affirmation; the desire to belong; the deep isolation – all of which
when not met in me – now have laid the perfect snare for the
assignments of the enemy.
"My champions shall now know a violent satanic assailing against
their minds. Any thought not taken captive shall be a thought that can
take violent root in their soul to lead to ensnarement. Anything from
their past that has been dealt with by their own strength and not by
my Spirit, shall become a snare to them and can leave them vulnerable
to the enemy of their souls. Any habit not ruthlessly dealt with and
put to the cross, when assigned with the searing heat of temptation,
will breed and rapidly multiply."
Jesus continued. "In this past age Jezebel has translated into its
many different forms, but one of her primary rules in this present age
is her amalgamation with Babylon, the spirit of world and lust. Lust
of the flesh, lust of the eyes and the pride of life. Jezebel rules
electronic media – film, television, advertising – she is the epitome
of seduction in this last age. She was Delilah, Salome, Herodias. She
rules pornography, fear, adultery, lasciviousness, homosexuality,
pride, power, separation, divorce and ambition and every perversion
and sin of the flesh known to mankind. She tantalises, packages sin,
sells it and then debases and exposes her victim before killing. Her
primary targets in this last church age are my ministers, both men and
I felt the icy chill once more. Well I knew the depth of hatred
Jezebel holds for God's bondservants.
"Multitudes of my ministers today struggle with pornography.
Multitudes of my ministers struggle now with lust on a daily basis.
Multitudes are struggling against a terrible coldness of heart within
their marriages and families.
"Many came out of a deeply sinful lifestyle or out of deep-rooted
rejections and as was the way in this past generation, far too many of
my children were not disciplined effectively and did not receive
effective healing in the areas that propelled them into that habitual
sin. Also, especially among my leaders in this past generation, my
Church has been so embroiled in self righteousness that if one of my
children has cried for help in an areas of help, many times they have
been ostracised, isolated and had their confidence betrayed. This has
led to my ministers leading double lives, having a public face for
their congregations whilst crying out to me in their bed chambers
because they hate what they have become. Yet they know that many will
deal treacherously with them if they admit their need for help.
Jezebel knows this full well and it is one of her most effective
strategies. For once the champion is isolated from real help, the
seducing spirits are unleashed and time after time, my child falls
into adultery, fornication, homosexuality, pornography, separation and
divorce. And how I and my Father grieve. For well Lucifer knows that
it is often those who love us and who have hungered for our presence
who have often been the most damaged in their past – and now Satan
targets the damaged places. Warn them. Warn them to guard against the
great deceiver of their souls. For like Satan came to me in the
wilderness, he intends to do now to those who follow me, who lead
others – to tempt, to lure, for in this most violent of testings, even
my most elect shall fall."
He hesitated and a great pain seemed to cloud his countenance. And I
sensed that He was thinking about whom I knew that He loved greatly
who had been caught in a prevailing sin. And I thought of the ones in
this past year who had fallen in ways that were still politically
acceptable to us in the household of God – but my thoughts were not
with those, but rather with those, so many of late, who had fallen
morally – not acceptable – and who had lost or taken time from their
And as I looked into Jesus' eyes, I knew that these were the ones he
grieved for. For well he knew how they loved him. In fact, some loved
him more, much more than any others. And well he knew how they must
have wrestled in the still quiet hours of the early mornings against
sin. But because the assignments of hell had been so meticulously
crafted and because Lucifer knew so well that the politics of the
Church so often ensued isolation and silence and struggling with sin,
one by one they had fallen to the brokenness and fissures of their own
And as he looked at me, I felt that suddenly I knew how He had looked
upon that rich young man. And so I prayed for all of us who had been
targeted by the enemy to be assailed in their last end time, that even
in the turmoil and the fierce heat of the testings and trials and
temptations, we would draw on His strength that would take us through
the eye of the needle to the last lap of the narrow way that we may be
counted as conquerors.
"Lord Jesus. How can we stand?" I whispered.
"There is only one way to survive the onslaught, my child." His voice
was so soft. "Firstly, to repent of any and all lukewarmness and
backsliding in your heart and to maintain zealously your love for me.
Secondly, to keep yourself from all idols and remain fervent in the
spirit which is the result of true fellowship of spirit and in truth
with my Spirit and the Father and feeding on my Word until my words
are spirit and life to you," he hesitated, "and finally, the cross.
The deception in every temptation is which caused Adam to leave
billions of souls into sin – that of selfishness. Temptation promises
that which self desires. When my children desire the promises of sin
more than they desire me – they will fall.
"The greatest weapon to survive the onslaught is for my children to
take up their cross and follow me. To take up their cross daily and to
die to everything in their souls and their mind which opposes my
truth. To let go of that lower life which is the flesh and continually
mortify their minds and bodies and to put to death the deeds of the
flesh. My children have forgotten the power of the cross. They have
thought that to die once is sufficient. But the spirit of the world,
with its carnality and selfishness loosed upon this present generation
is so strong in these evil days – that it is only in a continual daily
crucifying of their flesh that they will indeed be able to withstand
"Remember it is written, for you do not have a High Priest who is
unable to understand and sympathise and have a shared feeling with our
weaknesses and infirmities and liability to the assaults of
temptation, but one who has been tempted in every respect as we are,
yet without sinning.
Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the
throne of grace... that we may receive mercy for our failures and find
grace to help in good time for every need, appropriate help and
well-timed help, coming just when we need it. (Heb 4 v 16; Amplified
"Even when you feel you are falling into the very pit of hell itself,
even when it seems as if you are clinging to me and to my Father and
to my Word and its principals by a thread – when you feel that hell is
sucking me in – it is then that you must cry out to me. Cry out to my
Father. Cry out our name, and in that very second we will come to you
and rescue you. We will draw you in and protect you from every wile of
the evil one.
"I said I will never forsake you, and this is true. Even when you are
in the heat of temptation – still if you cry out to me – I will hear
"Speak my Word and I, the living Word, will come to your aid and
accomplish that which I have promised.
"Now, warn my children. My Father's heart is grieved with a terrible
grieving. Warn my beloved – that many would be saved out of the
fowler's snare – that even those in the deepest mire might cry out to
me and find their way home."
Blessings to each of you..... much love, cathryn
Saturday, February 17, 2007
There is no place like His presence... where i can put my sword down... and just sit at His feet. We can do it when we are awake or asleep... for the Spirit NEVER sleeps. Thought i'd share a prophetic dream that i had semi-reciently.
In the dream, i was at a "New Age" conference... and there was a lot of stirrings in the 2nd Heaven warfare realms. This woman was giving a presentation on "How to be a GOOD medium"- to which i chuckled in the dream at the actual title... Good and Medium being in the same sentence. She started to channel this THING... and then tried to hand me a journal to write down what she was saying. (I declined of course)-
It was then that i saw Rick Joyner sitting in the corner and we nodded at each other, and sort of did that knowing eye roll as to what was being presented. It was then Rick sent out a Spirit message... for there were other believers there- and i could sense their questioning as to why God had stuck us in this New Age Mecca. The Lord showed me that it was a Spirit message and not of Soulish telepathic realm- so that only those who were HIS could hear it.
What Rick said in the dream was.... "Stay your positions, there is gonna be and opportunity to reveal the Real from the Counterfeit." Then the dream shifted, and Rick was speaking - standing on a soap box- and he began a short teaching. He said "This is the difference between the psychic and the prophetic." "The psychics read palms and the prophets read breastplates."
Immediately the Lord started speaking to my spirit and said... "palm reading is flesh, it is soulish and so what someone can tell you of your past, the enemy was there and saw that as well. However, the Breast Plate of Aaron was the twelve tribes and the stones represented their territory, callings and giftings in the Spirit. When you prophesy to one who is an unbeliever, you are prophesying their calling- heritage and destiny in ME. -Calling forth their true idenity in which they were fashioned and framed to walk."
"When you prophesy My Heart to one who is already mine, you must Always look thru the Breast Plate of Righteousness and see them thorough the righteousness of MY SON JESUS. You will then see more clearly and with My heart of compassion- descerning. Then you will see the breast plate of Aaron in a strikingly new light, speaking revelation."
The dream changed again and i was out in a river. It was very dark, the movement of the water was forceful and choppy. There were 12 others and we were trying to stay together. You could see each one, by the bright orange color of their "life jackets". I don't know who said it... or if it even came from one of the 12..... but we heard a voice that said... "take your life jackets off, for they could get caught up on things to the point that it could kill you." So we all took them off....and began to swim freely and letting the currant, though it was traveling at a swift speed take us. We went under a bridge- thick walls- like a train would be traveling above it. There were lines of demarkation that signifiied the depth of the water. It said 43 feet deep. I awoke and the presence of the Lord was thick in the room. It was so tangiable that i could hardly sit up. So i asked the Lord what did the "life jackets" represent. He said "it is the spirit of religion- doctrines- where the enemy has tried to restrict My Power". I thought of all the different religious templates and how in our own mind and understanding, we have limited by our predjudices and opinions, His ability to move freely by His Spirit.
I pressed in again for more light to this revelation. I asked what did the 43 ft deep water marker represent? He said Isaiah 43........ - i'll leave that to all the inquiring minds that want to know. For me.... i just wept.
on an aside note... As i further inquired and brought this word before a few of His servants. I learned from the Jewish perspective... that when the High Priest inquired of the Lord, concerning a question, the stones in the actual Breast Plate would glow. Each of the stones had a corrilating hebrew letter, so the Priest would actual READ the Breastplate. Selah!
To Dying Well Daily, Living like it's Worth it and LOVING FIERCELY,
Saturday, February 10, 2007
I really have a dilemma... and it's NOT the Cab vs. Merlot-
My brother sent me the picture.... he's a full on Marine Warrior (you can scroll down and see him if ya want)- but he saw it and Holy Spirit quickened to his heart ... that this is who i am in the Spirit....(there is another picture that i will blog on later... it's the other part.) But for now.... this is where i'm at.... My heart is to see each one that i have the privilege and HONOR of meeting - walk in the fullest freedom that has been ordained for them. I'm willing ONLY by the Grace of God... to go all the way in to see a POW/MIA- set free. But what i despise is the "fall out"- the passive aggressive crap that i get while in the midst. I know it's some of the warfare.. but "friendly fire" ain't friendly! I have always at least TRIED to be honest, real and authentic- but for what ever reason that pisses some off.
So how do i stand in a place of TRUTH... that we're all screwed up except for the Grace of God that is in the Active Process of transforming US. - which means granting grace to where each is in the process and not taking the transference personally. My friend Derek Chapman calls it "holding the container"- which is a great frame... but there are times when i really want Smith Wigglesworth mantle... and punch something evil. I'm really trying to be vulnerable here... on a freakin public blog.... It's no wonder why there are soooooo many Pastors in burn out mode. I read something about "sheep bites"- that they are the most infectious bites someone could get in the natural. Well in the Spirit it takes on a whole different level. It's aim is to KILL! I'm NOT trying to be dramatic... embellish... or over enunciate the plight of a warrior. But there are sooooo few that actually know... perceive... or understand the other side of it. The place where i want to collapse... into the arms of my Jesus.... and say..... "be my defense" - sometimes TRUE HUMILITY... is NOT denying the Authority in which one has been graced to walk.
It always seems to be Miss.Interpreted that likes to twist things, based on subjective findings. I'm not implying gender here... however... more than the masculine.... it is often the broken feminine that seems to be wielding that sword. Let me elaborate a bit more fully- at the speculation that i might be miss-interpreted. The true masculine is the place of initiating.... where as the true feminine is the place of responding. When distortion is present... the receiver is damaged... so that everything is perceived from a place of threat. Jesus himself could appear in manifested form/ theophany if you will- and the person would be asking .... "is this an angel of light?"- implying falseness. i know this is a Dennis Miller like rant... but had to get it out here....
Lord heal my heart- give me YOUR perspective on the matter- the places where i feel the stones of judgment being hurled. I can't walk this walk that You have called me to without YOUR unoffendable HEART.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
I love this bunch...
My Husband is Truly my Blessing Cup ... from Abba...... These guys are my double portion of love... in a lush glass!!!! Just hit the pic... and then hit slide show ... google does the rest.
Blessings ya all.... Shalom that is so thick and sticky that i won't wash off... oxoxo cathryn
Sunday, January 28, 2007
I'm posting this ... in honor of one of the most Faithful people in my life... and that is my Brother Anthony. He served in the Gulf War both Desert Shield & Desert Storm.... He holds the title of Marine in both the Spirit and the natural. He is one of the most treasured gifts that i have recieved from Abba. He has stood with me on endless posts... gone to the "wall" for me time and time again.... He is one that I know always takes my back ... as well as taken point during some of the hardest times of my life. My love for you Bro is beyond words... it is as deep & as stubborn as YOU ARE! You know i will Always go to the "Wall" for and yours dear one. So it is with tears and a sacred place of honor that i post what you sent to me this day. Semper Fi, Lovingly, Cathryn
A Soldier's Prayer
God our Father,
Help me to remain true to my ideals
during my service to my country.
Help me be what is in America,
the land of the free.
May I realize that I represent
what our country stands for.
My uniform is a symbol of duty and valor
both in peace and in war.
I take up arms to defend what all Americans hold dear:
life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.
Grant me the strength to live according to these ideals,
the courage of my convictions, and the resolve to endure whatever dangers threaten.
With you at our side I fear no evil
and resist every enemy,
secure in the knowledge
that you hold me in the palm of your hand.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
1:9-11 Lord, I pray for your abounding love, knowledge, insight, and discernment so that I may be pure, blameless and filled with the fruit of righteousness to your glory and praise. 1:27 I pray for strength to conduct myself in a manner worthy of the gospel.
2:1 I pray for unity with my family, friends, co-workers, and fellow believers. I commit with your strength to do nothing out of selfish ambition and to look to the interest of others as Jesus as my example. 2:11 In light of unity, I will continue to work out my own salvation with fear and trembling. 2:14 I commit to do everything without complaining or arguing, 2:15 so that I may shine like a star in the universe as I hold out the word of life.
3:3 I put no confidence in my flesh, 3:7 and whatever was profit I consider loss for the sake of Christ Jesus, and knowing Christ in the fellowship of His sufferings. 3:12 I press on taking hold of that which Christ took a hold of for me, forgetting what is behind, I press on towards the goal, 3:15 living up to what I have already attained in Christ Jesus.
4:4 I chose to rejoice in the Lord always. 4:5 I pray that my gentleness will be evident to all. 4:6 I chose not to be anxious about anything! But in everything I will pray. I will be thankful. I will make my prayers/requests known to God. 4:7 And the peace of God which transcends all understanding WILL guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus.
4:8 I choose to think on things that are TRUE, NOBLE, RIGHT, EXCELLENT, LOVELY, ADMIRABLE, OF GOOD REPORT, AND PRAISE WORTHY!
4:9 Lord help me to put into practice whatever I have learned. 4:11 I confess that I will learn to be content no matter the circumstance, 4:13 because I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. 4:19 And I believe and do not doubt that MY GOD will meet all my needs (PHYSICAL, SPIRITUAL, and EMOTIONAL) according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus. AMEN!
Proverbs 30:5 Every word of God is flawless; He is a shield to those who take refuge in Him.
John 6:63 “The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life…” (Jesus)
1John 2:14 The word of God lives in you and you have overcome the evil one!
Chaplain Peg Guill (girl you ROCK) sent this to me ... and it was really worth sharing. P.S. I'd really much prefer HIS word anyway.
shalom, let it go to the deepest places.!!
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Mysterious Toast to this year... filled with wonder, new wine and light.
This year has come in with a fast and furious pace. New CD's being released.... Stephen Roach, Brandon Willett & Mark Stoney just to name a few. New birthing of home churches... Way to go Rebecca & Tim! Hit my link to "twentyfour/7 church"-
Travels and Travails- Wow.... All i know is God's got something really cool up His celestial sleeve.
However... there is the "tilling" process that i'm feeling and sensing at this moment. Some of the major rocks need to be dug out of the field. Things like bitterness, anger, fear, rejection & unforgiveness is what i'm seeing, not just in my own space on this cosmic neighborhood plot, which i'm seeing VERY clearly. (despite the Merlot that is clamoring for attention.)
I'm seeing the terrain and it's slope & grade... where the irrigation ditches need to be developed. For most of US... (those that i know well... and some i'm getting glimpses in the Spirit)- these past 3 years in particular have been very dry... wadi like in it's vast expanse. What i'm seeing is that when those rocks are removed...
God's got WELLS in the Spirit... where fresh, pure and refreshing water is bubbling just beneath the surface. For some it is like the water at the place of Bethesda... and Angelic Host of the Most High God are stirring them so that the lame will walk. Some are like sulfur- mineral baths... that will sooth achy joints and muscles. Some are wells of revelation of His Spirit... and a deeper communion where the water will become wine and a portent of the New Wine in the Heavenlies.
This can't happen without FORGIVENESS.
Which sound rather simple... (yeah right)
Jesus said something to me ... not too long ago ... about Forgiveness.
"If it were not for the forgiveness extend on the cross... (Father forgive them for they know NOT what they do)... the Resurrection could NOT have taken place."
That stunned me... I just sat there as HE downloaded the revelation that ... if HE didn't forgive FROM the cross... He would have been bound by the sin of
I had NEVER looked at it that way.... and i'm still pondering that one liner. But the verse ... "that He who knew NO sin, became sin for us"- smashed into my spirit like a wave, that He had to forgive the sins against HIM as well.
We have all known either by sins of omission or sins of volition... the pain that it has caused... The grief, the anguish, the sheer injustice of it. Sometimes i have to say... Lord, i believe,HELP my unbelief... because I can't do it ... it hurt too much... and it's even changed how i relate to people.
But then that verse in Hebrews 4 comes with it's salient point...
"For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness, but we have ONE who was temped in every way, just as we are- yet was without sin"
Ok... so it's not just me.... sins of generational proportions have filtered down. Judas was not confined to one of the twelve... but we all have been kissed by betrayal. So how do i do this.??? So how do WE do this?
It says "to confess our sins to one another that we may be healed"..... interesting that it doesn't say forgiven. But the point that sticks in my spirit... is that by the act of confessing our unforgiveness... and imparting that forgiveness... HIS hand can come with Healing.
OUR HEALING IS MADE MANIFEST.
I could go on for days on how i see the emerging church needing to "confess the sin of unforgiveness" to their/my forefathers of the faith. For what we judge - we become. But i'd rather keep it personal. For we are all in the process of Emerging...
I really want the "rocks" out of my garden ... so that HE can plant deeply His plans and destiny in the fruitful field that it was intended to be from the beginning of time.
But for me... that means allowing him to till the field and co-laboring in the digging out the stones that cover His wells... First i need to ask HIM to give me eyes to see them and then choosing to lay them down... before i hurl them at someone in a "fleshy" moment.
(he that is without sin cast the first STONE thing)..... Perhaps older and wiser laid them down first.... or was it they just had a longer list?
I long to see the wells of HIS goodness and mercy uncapped in your lives!!!
Love to each of you.... shalom, cathryn