Blogging is a Moving Meditation.

BLOGGING as a MOVING MEDITATION: Liminality's thin passage untangles as it weaves, fits in the ineffable nooks and crannies of my heart's prayer wall, like the cracks in pavement, mile markers on the road, windblown whimsical napkin poems written in eyeliner.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Tribe Toast....

Can't help but missing Ya all....
so i thought I'd send a toast.... to all of "Ya ALL............." (and that's a bunch) God has blessed US beyond measure with your friendships. Phil and I are overwhelmed by your love.... Each one of you are a TREASURE in the Kingdom... and the tapestry of vibrant colors with it's depth, richness, strength and intensity is such a royal garment it's stunning! Love to every heart.... and i pray your "love tank" gets filled beyond measure... even more than you can contain.
Lovingly....... Phil & Cathryn xoxoxoxo

P.S. having a little fun with the wine after Christmas dinner... (just the two of us) so here is a little tribe art! i really am more right brain than left...

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Christmas hello's...

So what can i say.. but.... i'm praying that ya all's season celebration be big and full of HIS presence. I'm at home... and just cleaned MOST of the house.... just feeling like there is a new season coming. If i REALLY wanted to get organized.. it would take much more than 72 hours.... but little bits at a time makes it "do-able" I think that is all part of the "new year"... though i don't go by Gregorian Calender; however there is something about Jan 01-07... that makes me want to bring some order into the new year..... I'm NOT talking about "new year resolutions" more like "New Year's perspective". To allow a new season in our hearts. It's more like allowing God to use this calender of events... and to mark it. So with much hesitation... i'm saying..... YES LORD..... i give you permission to be Lord over my life.. and this small spec of vapor that You want to habitate... to dwell in.
let the manger of my heart.. be your resting place.. amen. cathryn

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Presence for Christmas!

This is written by my friend Rebecca..... and it's worth reading..... glad i could post it here!!! Love ya girl!!!! and big Phat Amen! ps i need your picture!
Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Presence for Christmas

We get these crazy investment reports/suggestions/speculations emails from some unknown "expert" in the field of investments. I never read them, but today, before I hit the delete button, I read this.."INVEST IN WHAT WILL SURELY BRING A GOOD RETURN." I don't know about what the "expert" was ta;king about , but I know that we invest in what will surely bring a good return . We invest in people. My heart is so filled with this, that I might burst with the love of it before I can even type this. It is not about how much money you make, or your knowledge, or your theology, it is about the ability to take chances and invest LOVE! There is work involved in this. There is time involved, and prayer, and the willingness to take on the fear that the world places in us about loving people. This is not a Christmas emotion, this is the most powerful force in the universe working though us, throughout the year, for GOD IS LOVE! This week, we received two "returns." Someone that we have prayed for, for ten years, and someone that we have prayed for, for two years. And we were able to see the return! Sometimes you don't always get to see it, but you can't go wrong investing in people. Don't buy the world's lie on this. The truth is, He invested in all of us. Loving us is His JOY. So, tonight, my heart is full thinking of the people that God brought into our lives, if your reading this, your probably one of them, it is our JOY for Christmas and throughout the year, to love YOU. I wish that we could love you bigger, but God loves you HUGE! This Christmas, be loved completely by the Father's presence, and invest in loving others in the new year, it will surely bring a good return, and when He returns He will wrap us all up in His huge love, and everyday will be Christmas...

to read more from her and their home church.... or for whatever reason that isn't working... look to your right under "Tribe" and just hit there link.
They way have a huge Kingdom view.... and are some of my deepest warrior big hearted friends.

Shalom ya all.... Cathryn

Monday, December 18, 2006


shalom ya all-
wanted to share..... i've sorta taken a semi- people break the last few days.... had to do a few "have to things" like Phil's boss's Christmas party tonight... it's late and i really need to sleep... but was feeling ya all..... and ya'all's prayers... THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! after crying and being frustrated for seemingly weeks....... Friday night at Stephens "release party"... there really was a release in the Spirit....i just went into thrash mode in dance... they went into this warfare drum thing (thought you'd like that paul!)------- it was stoked! (and it's not as though i was taking any authority stuff... i wasn't even thinking on that level....) just drums of the tribe...... blasting a way into 3rd heaven... then it went into some steep instrumental stuff that put me flat out on the floor..... and though it doesn't change some of the stuff i'm walking back into on Tuesday..... it sort of refocused my sight..... THAT ALL OF THIS IS NOT PASSING BY HIM UN-AWARE.....

I felt the Fog of War part.... some of you are familiar with that term... but for those of you that aren't.. it's the place in a fire fight when the smoke from the battle becomes so thick you can't even see your hand in front of your face.... all constants become variables.... and when your shooting you can't even see what your shooting at.... (nor can others... so that's where friendly fire can really do havoc)

My brother Anthony (dude in the pic) once said something that i've NEVER forgotten.... "when your in the "fog of war", old orders are still good orders"......... The order HE always gives me is to "hold ground" in that situation. Don't move until HE says move.... and when He does speak... move quickly. I don't know what He's gonna do next.... but I know ..... HE's on it..... and thank you all for praying heaven move on my behalf.... your prayers did just that.

I know that HE is my constant... in the storm.... HE is the Northern Star..... and HE doesn't change...... even when my emotions are rocking harder than any sea could.

Phil and i watched 911 today... middle of the afternoon.... and i cried for like 3 hours...... it was crushing... and most of ya all know the stuff i was getting before it happened..... so watching it was like Friday nights worship.... but in this realm....... intense.... raw.... painful.... powerful... and passionate. It just reminded me that our life is but a vapor.....and yet..... it is so precious.

That the Kingdom Now part is that we have a divine destiny in the Spirit... that what we do here and now affects multitudes. .... and sometimes just ONE.... for the ONE is our Mission. There was a Marine in that movie... and he really was like Spirit...... focused & intense... and he was walking towards the wreckage---- he said to one guy who basically said...."you can't seen nothing with all that smoke"... the Marine answered back..... "that God uses the smoke to shield our eyes from what we are not ready to see". (and ANTHONY my beloved Marine brother... i was thinking of you at that moment and how proud i am of you ... that you still walk where you can't see)

But that part really hit my spirit hard. - he walked straight into the rubble when the "search was called off because it was night"- He didn't just numb out to the surroundings.... he saw everything.... and yet went searching for ANYONE still alive in all of that. When he found the 2 guys.... in the middle of the dialogue.... he shouted "i'm a Marine.... YOU are our mission".

Our mission is still the same.... Isaiah 61 ---

"The Spirit of God, the Master, is on me because God anointed me.
He sent me to preach good news to the poor, heal the heartbroken, announce freedom to all captives, pardon all prisoners. God sent me to announce the year of his grace- a celebration of God's destruction of our enemies and comfort all who morn. To care for the needs of all who mourn in Zion, give them bouquets of roses instead of ashes, Messages of joy instead of news of doom, a praising heart instead of languid spirit. Rename them "Oaks of Righteousness" planted by God to display his glory........."
(The Message)

Old orders are still good orders!
The primary directive of the enemy is always the same.... To steal, kill & destroy.....
Let's keep focus ... and carry out ours!
That's where i'm at.... thanks to your prayers.... much love beloved! cathryn

Saturday, December 16, 2006


OK......... Stephen Roach has done it AGAIN!!!!!!
NEW CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Closer to the burning" if one ain't enough...................... the boy's dun gone technical on us!

What can i say Stephen.... 'cept.......... NOW what were those prophetic words

years ago that you TRIED TO IGNORE!!!!

Glad i got the front row seat of that seed turning into an OAK!!! To know you as my "little brother"... has been one of the most treasured gifts from ABBA!!!! I love you and i'm sooo Proud of you!

Consumed in YOUR flame. Bushes burn in our deserts. Blessing hides in everything.

Whether loved, whether despised, whether accepted, whether denied. Whether praised, whether unknown, whether standing before kings, or standing alone.

YOU are an all-consuming fire. YOUR love burns through everything. Listen close, HE's calling out........................... To those who'll turn aside to see.

HE's coming closer as we speak........ stephen roach.